We have been slackers. Honestly. We became the pathetic, robotic character that completely shuts down and gives up on life. I feel like the girl on Legally Blonde who shuts out the outside world, sits in bed all day trying to get fat on junk food and shouts at the TV.
I think we're just going through this depressing, lack of motivation phase in life. It's that awkward in-between big life events stage where we detach from reality in order to make the time go by faster and try not to dwell on the fact that we're NOT where we want to be yet.
It's so sad. Besides school and work, we've run out of creative things to do on our zero budget. So we usually sit on the couch in technology land on our gadgets until our heads explode, look at the other couch-potato companion and say something like... "Um... should we nap now?" At least we hold hands the whole time, so we're still madly in love, even if we have become poop zombies.
I've really been struggling with this for a while. There's only so much I can take of picturing the future and how things will someday get better without being sad that I'm not there yet. I don't want to dwell on the sadness, I want this to be a happy post, but I do want to mention this...
I wonder why in the great plan of happiness it is necessary to experience sadness and heartbreak. Negative emotions like hatred, jealousy, and lack of forgiveness we are taught to overcome and know that it's wrong. But when Christ walked the earth, our perfect example, he too went through times of sorrow. I searched the scriptures and found times where we're told to be happy and lift up our hearts, but there were also many scriptures of comfort for those who are low. Instead of saying, "suck it up and be cheerful" there are prophets who can relate to us and talk of their times of sorrow when they too felt weary. Which leads me to think it's ok to experience sadness every once in a while! It's part of why we are all here! It's fine to have that good cry in the shower and collapse to the drain like you're starring in a dramatic movie! It's healthy to overreact and bawl your eyes out watching New Years Eve, when in reality, you're probably crying for completely different reasons because of everything that's happening around you.
Along with it being ok to have a breakdown every now and then, it is still important to shoot for the positive attitudes, because we all know, being happy is ALWAYS, ALWAYS better. Which brings me to my brand new favorite quote...
"Whenever I feel sad, I stop being sad, and start being AWESOME!"
-Inspired by Barney: How I met your mother
Right?!? Sweetest quote ever! I need to start being AWESOME! The next time I want to pull out my phone and veg out and play TINY WINGS for a bazillion hours to drown in my self-pity, I'm gonna slap myself in the face and say, "No! I'm too awesome for this!" and go rearrange my closet. I'm gonna start caring about my appearance again and say no to "The bun" and actually do my hair for work!
Maybe I'll paint my nails neon green while I'm at it to match my outfit! And add a glitter layer on top if I'm feeling nuts!
The scriptures have been my constant guide throughout this entire journey, and have given me all the information I need to get through any trial.
"If thou art sorrowful, call on the Lord thy God with supplication, that your souls may be joyful."
Doctrine and Covenants 136:29
Let's be happy again! Let's be awesome! I'm gonna open my blinds and let the warm sunlight in once again.
You guys are already awesome! It's okay to feel sad. I think if we never did, we'd never know what happy felt like. But an organized closet is way overrated. :)
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